Codependancy

Josh's recent absence has shown me that most of the time codependancy is a pain in the butt. There was a time, not so long ago, that I loved living and being alone. I loved having my own space and loved having my own time. Then all that changed. Some guy came around and now I have complete breakdowns when I am alone. I have to call everyone I know because the silence in my apartment is driving me up the wall. My entire life I preached independance...now I depend on someone else. WHAT HAPPENED???????? The ironic thing is that Josh will come back tomorrow night and I will wish I had the apartment to myself again! Oh the vicious circle that is codependancy!!!