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I have recently discovered that, although I completely understand this, I live as though I think God's sole purpose is to give me what I want, when I want it.

I have been reading the book of Exodus and have been so convicted by the actions of the Israelites. God had just performed the most amazing miracle by parting the Red Sea and delivering the Israelites from their slavery to Egypt, and what do they do? They complain because they are hungry and begin to wish they were back in Egypt. Because God's provision for them didn't look like what they thought it should, they complained and wished they were back in slavery. I am an Israelite.

I have been extremely reluctant to openly discuss what I am going through in my personal life, and have hid it through witty posts. However, God is teaching me so much that I simply must share it, in hopes that maybe it speaks to one of the people who read this blog. A little over two months ago, God delivered me out of an abusive and destructive marriage. He parted my Red Sea. He took the broken relationship with my parents, brought about reconciliation in less than a week after three years of not speaking, and used them to bring me to safety. Since that time, I have been provided with food, shelter, clothing, a car, a job, etc. I should have been grateful...

I have grumbled. I have complained. I have (unbelievably) been desperate to return to Washington and to the relationship I was so desperately seeking refuge from. I have been so focussed on everything I gave up when I left Washington, that I have failed to see the miracle God has worked in my life and the provisions He has given me. I have cried and complained over having my brand new car taken away, and completely ignored the 1991 Volvo that was a gift and has given me freedom and the ability to find a job. I have been disappointed in being hired at Directv; after all, I worked for an Immigration attorney in Bellevue, and that is what I really wanted. I have spent hours moping over losing my precious cell phone. Yet, it seems that every time I need to make a call, my mom's is readily available. I have been embarrassed and griped about having to live with my parents, when so many women in my circumstance end up homeless or in a women's shelter. I have mourned the friends that I have lost due to misunderstanding and lies told about me, all the while failing to be thankful for the family and friends here that have been by my side every step of the way. The list goes on and on. It has been so humbling to see myself through the mirror of the Bible. Don't we all want to identify with the heroes of Scripture? Who wants to identify with the bad examples?

To wrap it up, I have learned the following: God's provision is perfect and it rarely comes in the package that we think it should.

Living the Lyrics

What have I got to do to make you love me?
What have I got to do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you’re not there?

What do I do to make you want me?
What have I got to do to be heard?
What do I say when it’s all over?

What do I do to make you love me?
What have I got to do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?

When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Unemployed

So I am still living in the land of the unemployed. It isn't so bad really; as long as you enjoy having no money and nothing to do all day, I highly recommend the life of the unemployed. I have compiled a list of things to do to pass the time, while jobless:

1. Fold and unfold socks
2. Alphabetize your dvds according to production studio and title
3. Change your dog's outfit three times a day (this applies to all kinds of pets and inanimate objects)
4. Catch up on Beverley Hills 90210 re-runs (the original series)
5. Sit a chair in the middle of a room and spin while staring at the ceiling
6. Watch every dvd you own, in the order that you bought it. If you can't remember when you bought it, watch it according to the date it was made.
7. Count calories and write it down in your planner. It will have lots of space because you don't have a job to fill the pages
8. Chase squirrels and other small creatures
9. Impatiently stand by the mailbox every day waiting for the government check that President Obama promised everyone during his campaign. Spread that wealth!!!
10. Spend entirely too much time on blogs, Myspace, and Facebook.

Oh yeah...Look for a Job!

So you see, there is plenty to do! The unemployed person should never be bored.

In all seriousness, if anyone hears of a job opening in the Boise please let me know. I have been on interview after interview and am told I am in the top 2, then they go with someone else. There is only soo many times I can do the above-mentioned list. I think I have completed it like 15 times in the last two months!