That is right! Two blogs...One night!!! Could this mean that I have more whitty and piffy things to say or could it be that I am desperately avoiding homework?? This is a mystery that may never be solved. At any rate, I digress.
So the most inconvenient thing happened to me upon turning 24 (yes I am now admitting my age). My biological clock started thundering in my ears. Now, I know that I am no where NEAR being ready emotionally and physically for a baby. I am still trying to figure out my Yorkie. I can only imagine trying to navigate my through infantdom. However, these facts in no way muffle the sound of my fleating youth ticking away at every turn. This is not helped by the fact that I am completely surrounded by babies, pregnancy, and commercials for reversable birth control. I literally ran out of Target tonight with the things I needed b/c I was surrounded by pregnant women and newborns. I guess I now know what everyone in Redmond was up to all summer!! AGH!!!!! I have this irrational fear that my clock will be all ticked out by the time I hit 25 and then what am I going to do???? The only logical response is to produce two kids between now and next September!!! My husband does not share my logic. Who cares! We all know that men are the most illogical creatures on the planet. If only I had the time to try to convince him that our only hope is for twins and we have to do it NOW!! What if it takes years for him to see it my way???? Frankly that is not a risk I can afford to take. I only have 9 good months of my youth left!!!!!!!! The quest for a baby has so consumed me that I have constructed evil plots on the most effective route to motherhood. The fact the my plan to have a baby has brought out the worst in me should be a sign that it is ludicrous for me to possibly be an effective parent.
OH THE DILEMNA AND DRAMA THAT IS MY LIFE!!!!
*I have stalled enough. Back to Dramatic Literature*
Me 'n' Giz
Gizmo G. Moody
Amy & Lindsay
About Me
- Lindsay
- I am working hard and enjoying life. When I am not working, I am busy hanging out with friends and saving money for traveling. I am determined to live life to its fullest and experiencing absolutely everything I can!
3 comments:
Ahhh yes...a word that is being used more and more in my household {perhaps just by me} :) 25 1/2 and still no babies. Whatever happened to the dream of having 4 kids by the time I turn 30? I have realized that the more time passes the harder it is to ever feel ready. Does it not seem that girls our ages have had one and are already having their second?? But how vital this time has been for us that we can grow on our own and become who we are today before taking that next big step in life! I wish for you many beautiful babies...
Ok..as a mother of one going on two I understand your frustration. But the fact is one thing and I believe you were the one that told it to me lindsay when i got pregnant with my first daughter...YOU ARE NEVER GONNA BE READY TO BE A PARENT..you will never be ready. It comes and then you become ready. Its nothing you can plan for because it is the single most suprising thing ever. And the only way to know weither you will be a good parent is to try!! It is the best thing i have ever done in my life. Being a mother to a beautiful girl is the best thing in my life and always will be. The only time you will be ready for motherhood is when you become a mother.
Kimberly, I totally get that!!! I mean I wanna be a mommy really really bad. I think that with my love, their daddy doing most of the raising, and years of therapy my children will turn out just fine!! However, I really love my independence. I love not having anything but Gizmo slowing me down when it comes to Seahawk games, Mariners games, and random trips to Oregon. If it weren't for that pesky time bomb going off in my head, I wouldn't even worry about it!!!! So inconvenient!!! That being said, who knows when I really ever will feel ready. So the question remains, Do I jump in head first or do I wait a little longer????
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