It is 11:54 on a working night. I have to be up at 6 am and have another two hours of homework to complete before tomorrow. I must admit that I totally underestimated how difficult it would be to go back to school with a full time job and a full time husband. I have 6 papers in Theatre due tomorrow and a big assigment in another class due as well. On top of that I have four chapters of discussion to catch up on in Microeconomics. That, of course, means that I have to read those four chapters.
I understand the immense benefits that await me upon my graduation, however I am two years out from those rewards and three weeks into the 1st term of my junior year of college. My husband has been amazing. He has cooked, cleaned, ran errands, put together a chair and a difficult desk, and put up with my stressed out tears. I am soo blessed to have him. All of this makes me feel even more guilty about not spending more time and energy on my marriage and on Josh. He assures me that he doesn't feel neglected and has no problem being here to support me, but there is that part of me that is eager to be the perfect wife. I feel as though I am not only failing miserably at school (that's dumb b/c I have straight A's) but I am failing at home to.
Am I selfishly pursuing my own passions and desires at the cost of my husband and marriage?? I have a bizillion questions that I can not answer and frankly don't have the energy to explore much further. What I do know is that I am exhausted and sitting here blogging is not getting my papers done and not getting me into bed any faster.
ugh
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Amy & Lindsay
About Me
- Lindsay
- I am working hard and enjoying life. When I am not working, I am busy hanging out with friends and saving money for traveling. I am determined to live life to its fullest and experiencing absolutely everything I can!
1 comment:
You are such a hard worker and I admire that about you! Life is certainly about finding that perfect balance, and there will be those phases where the balance perhaps cannot be perfect. Brian spends a ton of time studying while in dental school and other areas lack in the meantime...but it will pay off later. Same for you too! Keep up the great work. You have much to be proud of!
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